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[05 May 2005|11:22am] |
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FHUERHIEHRUHERIEHGREGHREYGhRWE.
I dont want a relationship,
I dont want you to go up my shirt or down my pants,
Im NOT going to touch your fucking dank,
I dont have sex so Im obviously not going to do that.
You can touch my hips,
thats pretty hot.
But I just REALLY want to fucking make out.
and if I dont get it within the next 2 weeks-
I'll be frustrated.
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Im in such a fucking pissy mood.
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[04 May 2005|08:27am] |
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IVE NEVER SEEN SO MANY UGLY FAT BITCHES IN MY ENTIRE LIFE,
IVE ALSO NEVER SEEN SO MANY FUCKING OBESE 12 YEAR OLDS EITHER.
I HATE WATCHING GOTHS MAKE OUT,
ITS NASTY.
Other than that,
I HAD A BLAST.
Oh did I have fun.
I dressed up cute.
I had to buy new headbands because I broke mine,
and the ones I found go really well with the tanktop I wore-
its blue with stars on it =)
Alex found a Simple Plan shirt somewhere
and wore it,for giggles.
Elle has NEVER made me laugh so hard in my entire life,
I love that girl more than anyone could ever know
and Im so glad I have her as a best friend<3.
We didnt have to wait in line,we got right in.
We had seat tickets,and Alex had floor-
so we took his ticket and went up to different security and asked
for wrist bands.
I didnt want to get caught up in a gay mosh pit
and get pushed around all night,
I hate that shit.
But it wasnt bad at all.
Scott was there with his girlfriend and her little sister,
that boy is so funny.
Some skanky chic in a short skirt asked Alex to help pick her up
so she could crowd surf,
Elle totally saw her vag.
The dude from Simple Plan is way hot.
and the lead singer of Good Charlotte is a total douchebag
and talks about how no one understands him,
And their whole set was retarded Nightmare Before Christmas set up.
We danced to that new single they have out,
I Just Wanna Live or whatever.
And to Lifestyles Of The Rich And The Famous-
We were next to some drunk,stonned asshole
guys-they danced with us..along with the skanky
drugged out chics in the mini skirts they were with.
Ive never seen Elle so into it,
we danced damn good.
Alex and I kissed before he left my house.
I had fun though. Im so glad I made him buy
a ticket to go along with us.
I got made fun of so much.
ashionandagun x: GUESS WHAT
ooFxNewUzerxFoo: WHAT
fashionandagun x: im seeing simple plan and good charlotte tonight hahaha
ooFxNewUzerxFoo: ...
fashionandagun x: FOR FREE
ooFxNewUzerxFoo: 10 cool points? right out the window
ooFxNewUzerxFoo: see them? they just flew past
ooFxNewUzerxFoo: woop! there go your cool points, like dust in the wind
LilMissy0143: my boyfriend said the boys from good charlotte were at the mall earlier
fashionandagun x: I MISSED IT!*gasps*
LilMissy0143: Oh No WhAt To dO?!
And this is really fucking creepy.
oklahomie 3: dude. I totally found an ugly version of you on myspace
oklahomie 3: it looks like you on crack, 2 years from now
fashionandagun x: HAHHA
fashionandagun x: show me!
oklahomie 3: with kids, living in illinois
oklahomie 3: with a black eye, because your redneck husband beats you
fashionandagun x: holy..shit....
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[03 May 2005|12:52pm] |
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The most weirdest/random shit has happened within these past few days.
-I started talking to my old best friend
-I said mean things to Mike that I didnt mean
-My emotions have been like a fucking rollercoaster
-My old best friend tells me how he really feels
-I realized Alli and I dont have anything in common AT ALL
-This dude I use to work with who I thought was cool-
really isnt cool at all
and then today Elle texts me and tells
me how her mom bought tickets to see Simple Plan and Good Charlotte
tonight
and that we're going.
FHRUHEIRHIUERIEHRU. what the fuck?
But its really cute that she wanted
to do something nice,and get us something that she thinks
we would enjoy,
Its the thought that counts.
I laughed,Im looking forward to it-
it'll be a good time,a lot of laughs,
A LOT of making fun of fat chics in Good Charlotte shirts,
And getting to spend more time with Elle before
we both leave and dont get to see each other for 6 weeks.
The dude from Simple Plan is kinda sorta hot anyways,
he'll be nice to look at.
It'll be like looking at Mike or some shit
since hes gay and wears shhhh-pants or whatever the hell theyre
called.
=)
I think Alex is going to swing by before,
Im nervous.
I dont know why Im nervous.
I shouldnt be nervous,he was my best friend at one point-
I wasnt nervous over the weekend.
FUCK he picked my nose once.
FHUEHREHRUIHRHRE
I shouldnt be nervous.
Its just Alex.
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[03 May 2005|05:47am] |
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I woke up because my mom is crack whore cleaning.
I dont think Ive ever seen the kitchen not
full of papers,and just..shit.
Alex plays Dungeons and Dragons with a bunch
of people at the video game store he works at
every Monday.
I laughed when I heard this,
and I still think hes awesome.
I suck.
Im gonna watch Mean Girls,
cause I cant sleep.
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[02 May 2005|07:56pm] |
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oklahomie 3: hahahahhahaha
oklahomie 3: hhhh
oklahomie 3: aHAh
oklahomie 3: ah
oklahomie 3: ah
oklahomie 3: a
oklahomie 3: ha
oklahomie 3: h
oklahomie 3: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
fashionandagun x: what?
oklahomie 3: Evan king listens to bright eyes
fashionandagun x: HAHAHA
fashionandagun x: dude
fashionandagun x: thats really funny
oklahomie 3: its fucked up
oklahomie 3: he'll end up making a post relating bright eyes to the bible or jesus's final hour
I wanted to see Alex today,
but its game night.
I told him I'd let him pick my nose,
and then we remembered the time he actually DID pick my nose.
And it was on our way to see The All American Rejects,
ahahduheruiwwrw.
Hes getting another tattoo,
next to his hip,
and he wants me to come with him.
I dont know what Im going to do without Elle
for 6 weeks.
FHEURHEIRUERHIERHEUR
IM LAUGHING MY FUCKING ASS OFF BECAUSE
SOME DOUCHE I USE TO WORK WITH AT TIN STAR JUST SENT ME AN AUDIO
OF HIM SINGING TO BREAKING BENJAMIN AND ITS REALLY REALLY
FUNNY BECAUSE HES GETTING REALLY INTO IT
AND IT SUCKS ASS.
I sent it to Austin,
and I laughed way hard.
RCTIC S0UND: HAHAH he sounds like he's shitting his pants
ARCTIC S0UND: He's not even on Key
ARCTIC S0UND: Oh my God
ARCTIC S0UND: It's not funny anymore
ARCTIC S0UND: it makes me want to slit my throat with a rusty pop can..
ARCTIC S0UND: Dude
ARCTIC S0UND: that kid would slaughter Mary Had A Little Lamb
fashionandagun x: HAHAHA
ARCTIC S0UND: no pun intended
ahreuwrh goddammit.
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[02 May 2005|04:52am] |
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I cant sleep.
Todays been fucking weird
Thank god for EJ or else I would have lost it.
I still have 3 more chapters of biology to do before 11
tomorrow morning. I suck.
Weird how Alex and I like each other,
and how he almost kissed me last night,
it feels strange..like I shouldnt because
he use to be like a brother.
Except this time I know some girl isnt
going to take my place for the next 2 years...
hopefully.
I dont really understand why Im so worried about
other people taking my place.
It was good to talk to Alex about it tonight,
he atleast admits up to not being there after dating
Erica.
I hate to start something right before I leave anyways.
I bought tanktops and skirt frpm American Eagle and hair bretts today-
so I should cheer the fuck up because its something to
kinda look forward to.
and I guessssss Ill get started on biology =\
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[01 May 2005|11:54am] |
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you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and the cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls
you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that are breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just in the temperature
but then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i would act my age
but i dont think that youd believe
it's not the way i'm meant to be
it's just the way the operation made me
and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple weeks too late
and ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose
and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors
they've seen it all before
they'll say just let her crash and burn she'll learn
the attention just encourages her
and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that you're sorry that you asked
though you did everything you could
like any decent person would
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believeing youre immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off
and you can tell
from the spite at the state
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...
i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident
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[01 May 2005|12:51am] |
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I had a great time tonight,
Alex came and picked me up and we
went up to the mall to pick up Josh.
Ive never been inside the mall after closing,
its weird. They play mexican music.
Alex payed for me to see Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy-
and it was actually a lot better than I thought it would be.
Drunk people sat infront of us,
we laughed.
I forgot Alex knows how to tickle me right
on my knee,
he had fun with that-I didnt.
Boy isnt calling me tonight because I dont know why
and its stupid =)
But Ill live.
My mom has always really liked Alex,
and for once I come home pass curfew and she didnt even get mad or
say anything about it.
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[30 Apr 2005|12:07pm] |
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Last night was great.
Elle and I ended up going up to Reasors
and talking to her sister and we got Rachel
a pretty cookie.
I had the best sushi ever,and learned how to use chop sticks finally.
I got to see Tri,we laughed it up quite a bit.
Afterwords we met up with Alex and Josh,
and he gave me a great big hug and showed
me his tattoo.
He followed us over to Missy and Michelle's apartment
because I havnt seen them in FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR and theyre really awesome girls.
I got drunk,Elle was stonned off her ass
and some hot dude kept talking to me about that Hitchhikers guide
movie,
he explained the whole fucking movie to me and I pretended
to be interested.
We went back to Elle's and slept.
I realized that I cant stay still,Im always moving
around.
Elle brought me home,
I got gas in my car,I picked up my favorite
jeans,and later Im possibly hanging out with Melo-
and hopefully I'll be able to hang out with Alex later when he gets off work.
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[29 Apr 2005|04:53pm] |
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fhuieriwrhwrhiwhefwhriuh!!!!!
i guess its a good thing i dont want to be
a home maker when i grow up.
dat fo sho: WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO GET RACHEL?!?!?!?!
fashionandagun x: dude
fashionandagun x: dont worry
fashionandagun x: its from the both of us haha
fashionandagun x: i tested out the cookies-theyre not burnt
dat fo sho: oh god, no way.... i LIKE her
fashionandagun x: maybe we can buy some...
fashionandagun x: and make it look like we made them
dat fo sho: hahahaha YES
dat fo sho: lets go to my sisters work and get alot
I dont know what I would do without that girl.
I cant reach the box of markers in my closet =(
I like AIM conversations with Mike.
and I like Bloc Party,A LOT
and I get to see them and The Dresden Dolls
and Hot Hot Heat,
and you dont. =p
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JORDAN CRAM IS FUCKING TUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFff.
murrayismydog: dude i saw throwdown last night
fashionandagun x: how was it?
murrayismydog: fuckin tuff
murrayismydog: the singer from throwdown dude like took off his shirt and was like just like hitting in the air and stuff
murrayismydog: i was like gah hes so tuff
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[29 Apr 2005|01:08pm] |
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Im making Rachel cookies for her birthday,
and I burned them,and theyre really really black.
Last night sucked.
I love Gabe,Im so glad I have him as a friend-
I GET JEALOUS SO EASILY. I suck.
I know Ive wrote about this before,
but I really miss my aunts and uncles and cousins
on my dads side.
I feel so seperated from all of them.
And I hate how Im afraid to call my uncle Rick
and ask if I can come over,
and I dont know why Im so afraid to call and ask
because we had a great relationship when my nana was alive.
I know I should be over it by now,
I couldnt sleep last night and I kept thinking about it,
I finally fucking cried and fell asleep.
I slept so hard I didnt hear his phone call.
I hate it when that happens.
As much as I HATE staying home on the weekends,
I think it would be best if I stayed home on either
Fridays or Saturdays...
Im NEVER home when my mom is home,
and I feel bad leaving for 6 weeks.
And I want to spend more time with her..but every time
she comes home from work Im either out with Elle,
or shes out with her friends.
We come home,go to bed and thats it.
And the only times I see her,Im asking for more money.
I finally got my car looked at today,
and it was my heating that was all messed up-
so now my check engine light doesnt come on.
ANYWAYS,
Im excited for tonight. I get to hang out with my
favorite people. I'll possibly meet up with Alex and Josh tonight later on-
it depends what we do after sushi.
Mike wants me to come see some indie movie with him and his friends tonight-
but they leave me creepy ass comments on xanga
and are drugged out all the time...
so Im thinking I'll just drive down to Tahlequah and hang out
with him later without his weird ass friends.
Its kinda cold out today,
I like it.
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[28 Apr 2005|06:49pm] |
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Elle came and picked me up,we went sat at her house and did nothing. I laughed at her stepdad. We went to Reasors to see her sister in the bakery and we got free cookies. We went to this really little park. And looked at big houses.
Because we have our minds set on the fact that we think we'll get
rich SOME HOW and live in a big fucking house one day.
AKA
We'll live off of her dads money,
and I wont do shit and she'll still have to pay for me to do everything.
I have 4 chapters of biology to do. And I had a whole week to do it-and I of course didnt,so now Im gonna have to do it tonight because I sure as hell wont do it over the weekend.
Poor Rachel. Everyone forgot it was her birthday except me and Elle.
It really uspet her,and I feel awful. I really hope we can make it up to her tomorrow night.
I think we'll get her shit faced.
Conversations like last night make everything seem so much more better,and that its okay. And that Im really really lucky to have him as such a good friend.
Hes silly. I love it.
I like these compliments Steff gives me.
ucileTalksBack: i was thinking
LucileTalksBack: and
LucileTalksBack: you're such a virgin whore
LucileTalksBack: and thats why youre awesome
fashionandagun x: HAHAH
fashionandagun x: thats so random
fashionandagun x: thanks
LucileTalksBack: np
LucileTalksBack: WHOAshit i have to go piano practice
fashionandagun x: hahaha
LucileTalksBack: LOVE2MYNIGGAS
Today I made blow fish faces in the mirror. Because I suck and dont go to school and do nothing all day.
IFHUIERHIERHUE. Im so excited for Arizona.
Im going to start looking at it in a more positive way. I get to be doing nothing
somewhere else other than here-and thats always better,to do nothing somewhere else.
And I love my dad,hes my best friend. I know I'll get annoyed of him,
but I'm happy I get to spend time with him.
I'll make my brother do my art projects for me,
I can get back into reading and painting again.
But I'll miss everyone =(
and Ive never been away from home this long,
and I'll miss my mom and get really homesick.
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I just now woke up,
and I feel icky for waking up so late.
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[27 Apr 2005|06:30pm] |
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I think I should open every post with
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HFUERHIHRUIHRUEFHEIHRIEHRIEHFUEDHFIEHRIUHUHEUE
This is my fish face y'allllllllllll.
I looked in the mirror and did this talking to Dylan
for about an hour today. Noooo joke.
I got my car back,
not like I can drive it or anything still since I dont have any money.
My mom had a bad day today,
which means bitchfest2005 is tonight.
Bloc Party is amazing,
I cant even handle it sometimes.
And I get to see them in Arizona as well.
My brother is going to be very broke because of me.
I need a huge self esteem boost,
its been a not so good day.
Im such a jealous person.
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FHUERHIUERERHRUIEHRUIHFHEURIHEURHUHUEHR
Alex Pietz IMed me tonight,
I havnt talked to him since I was drunk-made out with Justin Larimore-and he went back and told
Lizzie.
Its been way over a year since Ive seen him.
And he sent me a picture..and god damn.
I miss that boy so much.
We use to be best friends,I was in the 8th grade and he was 16 and we
would watch Clone High together every week,
and we had Best Friends 4ever bracelets and we would sit in his car in the Target parking lot,
drink Jones soda,eat salt and vinegar chips and listen to Autopilot Off.
Every single time I go to the mall and pass by Gamestop-
Im always curious if hes working.
And I use to get so upset thinking about him graduating and going off to college,
and I hated every girl he ever dated because I felt like they were taking him from me.
Alman2500: jesus
Alman2500: you're hot
fashionandagun x: HAHAHA
fashionandagun x: i told you! i look so different
Alman2500: crap
Alman2500: my jaw still hasn't come up yet!
Oh my gosh,
Ive missed this boy so much.
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